Most Important Things……..
You can do on this planet……..
and Illumine Your own Consciousness!!
– Carlos Santana
You can do on this planet……..
and Illumine Your own Consciousness!!
– Carlos Santana
Finally, I have released the book – Food & You – Choose You that I’ve put together and have had out for testing for the last little while!!!
It’s a compilation of all the tools I have used over the years that have made a difference in healing my emotional eating and coming back to more of me.
In my late teens and 20s I struggled with an eating disorder / emotional eating and there really was no help at the time. I then went on to be a Raw Foods Chef – healthy yet extreme and it well it can be anal.
Don’t get me wrong – I am all about health and real foods but not militant like – that is not healthy.
I tried counselling and it just never worked I always left feeling worse than when I walked in. I’m not saying that it doesn’t work it just didn’t work for me so on my journey I tried many things.
When we succumb to addictions, it’s the inner feelings of usually low self-worth which is very low self love, love and not wanting to feel pain – usually from childhood – it helps with a relief from it.
That’s been my experience anyways and through the use of these tools and even deeper digging within because I’ve got this unquenchable thirst to keep going and find the truth and some of that was finding more truth of me!!
I had my eyes open to much and learned that we are not humans we are spiritual beings having a human experience but we walked through the veil of amnesia and into an enslavement society where it actually is insane and we’re all trying to fit in and it’s f*^@ing ludicrous when you truly step back and gain a bigger perspective.!!
We’re constantly bombarded by advertising reminding us we are not good enough which is utter bullshit as we are all perfectly imperfect and unique and we need to embrace that.
I mean what is perfect and who is perfect anyways??
In this book are some tools that I’ve used along my journey that I have used to interrupt patterns in programs and believes that kept me look into lower vibrations of not good enough, self-hatred and self abuse because let’s face – it an eating disorder like any other addiction – alcohol, drugs, sex, shopping, gambling, aren’t in the vibes of love and self love.
Also, the images, left over from my recipe books, have al been encoded with higher frequencies – everything IS energy – so this book was created from Love – I know where you are if you are struggling with emotional eating and I am here to share that you CAN turn this around. You have too – the world needs you.
The less we buy into the illusions the happier we are and become – those aren’t who we truly are yet we think they are.
Either way – you will be happy that you got it!!
I know you can do it!!
PS – Check out what people are saying about the book here!
Your mind is a garden.
Your thoughts are the seeds.
You can grow flowers or you can grow weeds!
It was time to weed my garden on all levels – took a 5 day break from social media – day 1 was interesting then honestly didn’t really miss it – now I did miss connecting with some people yet I found myself wasting time in some of the sites recently.
I also did an Invironment one where I stopped eating – only had water, green drinks and fresh coconut water, massages, gentle yoga, meditation, time in nature and a deeper diving during the lunar eclipse of old patterns and programs that no longer were serving me and were coming up to the surface to be cleared – once you put your awareness on things no longer working to see what that is then you can clear them.
Had some amazing synchronicities that were letting me know I was on the right path as when you are working with and from the heart you can’t make this stuff up that happens to let you know keep going!!
I highly encourage spending some time going within, cleaning up any weeds of your internal garden – physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually cause it is so worth it. When we let go of old programming, negative self talk, judgments, criticism, toxins from every day living, stress etc it’s like pulling weeds from the garden so that the flowers – the truth, the beauty, the authenticity can shine through and we can connect to our self, our soul and our source better.
After all – in the world of Quantum Physics – where Everything IS Energy and the outer world is nothing but a reflection of the inner world therefore inside is where it starts!!
Got a few great things coming up so check back in!!
A flowering does not think of competing with the flower next to it – it just blooms!
Ancient Rule of 21: if you do anything for 21 days in a row, it will be installed as a habit.
– Robin Sharma
We were ALL born pure, innocent and full of love – somewhere along the line the story got distorted!
The drug of choice for many, especially women, is food. Something every human needs, every single day. Thats what makes it harder to break free.
Along with that drug often comes constant self-criticizing, loathing, judging, and obsessing about what one ate, didn’t eat, body size, and shape. No matter how small the perceived imperfections, their importance becomes distorted.
Yes, media, advertising, parents, teachers, friends, or siblings may play a role in seeming to remind us that we aren’t good enough the way we are but it is we who buy into it, we who believe it.
It’s a disorder gone rampant. More than 91% of women dislike their bodies and themselves, many to a dangerous and debilitating extreme. 80% of 13-year-old girls have already tried dieting, and 95% of people with an eating disorder are between the ages of 12 and 25.
I know – I’ve been one of them.
The mental, emotional, and often times also physical, self-bondage is excruciating – yet many, myself included, hide it well from others.
21 Days Food and You is ALL about installing new ways of thinking and being and interrupting what you are doing or being now.
After my struggle with an eating disorder, that only in the last couple of years have I started sharing my story – I found ways in which to heal myself, find myself and return to self love – regular counselling did not nor never did work for me. I am not dissing it – it was just not for me.
I’ve done many things over the years to keep diving deeper within to find the real me, the hidden me, the wounded me so that I could come back to Self Love – which includes ALL of me without judgments and criticism – and hey I am not perfect.
When we let go of these programs that we think are us and running the show keeping us stuck in self destructive thinking and behaving – life gets better, we become lighter and freer.
In 21 Days I share tools and techniques that helped me – the great thing is you can redo it a often as you like – and it only gets better.
It’s a place to start.
Once you do – you will be happy that you did – it will open up new ways of thinking, feeling and even being yourself and others.
My wish for you is each day forward it only gets better – trust me – its’ worth it and so are you!!!
PS You can purchase 21 Days Food and You here.
It takes courage to endure the sharp pains of self discovery rather than choose to take the dull pain of unconsciousness that would last the rest of our lives.
– Marianne Williamson – A Return to Love
It’s taken me a little while to write this as I truly wanted to be transparent as it hasn’t always been pretty. For many many years I kept it quiet, hidden as much as possible as the shame, guilt and embarrassment was high.
For many years I have had a love hate affair with food – ok yes my body too – they usually go hand in hand for many women!
I only started sharing my journey a few years ago with friends and family and now after reading stats and understanding on a deeper level or programs, beliefs etc I want to come out of the closet so to speak! 🙂
When I was 15 years old I started down the path of Anorexia which then turned into Bulimia which literally ran my life for almost 10 years.
My Anorexia never hospitalized me as my weight only dropped to about 88 pads – I’m only 5’2″ and was maybe even shorter then! At about age 16 I also got into partying and smoking pot – so on weekends I would get the ‘munchies’ so at least my weight was ok – but I was not eating healthy and living healthy by any means.
I left for college at the big age of 17 and lived with an aunt and uncle in Toronto – she was big into health and ahead of her time so I learned a lot. My first natural path Dr visit – alternative flours, honey instead of sugar etc – this was the early ’80’. I even became an Aerobics instructor but boy did I battle with low self esteem and Bulimia.
After a couple of years of living in TO, I moved back to my home town and became a waitress and bartender – no – there was never any partying going on there!! Over the next few years I went back to college, moved to Banff and then Nova Scotia – still mostly in the service industry and still struggling with my eating disorder yet when I was eating ‘normal’ I ate very healthy……….talk about incoherence in my being!
It did slow down a fair bit and I realized that I cycled – it was mostly Jan to May – hence in Canada the colder, darker months – no wonder I love being in Mexico – the sun and warmth nurture my soul big time.
While in Halifax I became part of a 12 week study group out of the hospital with approx 10 women who struggled with na eating disorder – the stories were crazy yet I felt ok and not alone.
Most people then didn’t understand what having an eating disorder was truly about as there was no internet (ok I am dating myself here) and well it’s food – eating when you are hungry, stop when you are full.
Yeah right, sounds easy but in reality it’s not about the food at all – it’s just the drug of choice for many women instead of drugs, alcohol, gambling and even sex.
For some reason, at the time I was not aware, yet looking back on it I understand more now, but I faded out of my cycle. I had 2 beautiful children – who kept me busy and I never worried about weight between running after them (not quite 14 months apart) and working even part time. I felt I had conquered it – so much so I became a Certified Raw Food Chef and wrote some recipe books. I was still and always have been big into eating healthy.
About 12 years later, I went through a year of some hard times, almost bankruptcy, moved across the country and stayed with my parents for almost 2 months and had to start over – things were tight and I watched myself get triggered. I knew I hadn’t really gotten over it completely.
I dove into different modalities to help – EFT being the biggest one but many as main stream counselling did not work for me. I am not knocking it as we are all different but I only used it about half a dozen times and always left feeling way worse than when I went in and I was left hanging as well time is up and my next client is here……….
I’ve had triggers in my life since, yet I know that when we emotionally eat we are stuffing down our feelings as we don’t want to feel – it may be too painful, overwhelming, confusing, stressing or yet it’s all Emotion – Energy in motion unless we block it and push it down. Energy modalities and self love have been a huge part of the journey
Once I started or better yet stopped pushing emotions down and got in touch with more of me, I started seeing patterns and programs in my life.
You can’t explain an eating disorder to most people – as the one thing that separates out an eating disorder or emotional eating is you can’t quit cold turkey like you can alcohol and drugs – you need to eat and food is everywhere. It’s not always an easy battle but it’s so worth it as you get to re-claim more of you. And the world needs all you and your light.
When we choose to go down a road of addiction – it’s a program as it’s run by the mind and it’s not a healthy one (and I will post more on that) – somewhere, usually before the age of 7 as that is when all programming is done we created some story of not being good enough (and more).
While driving around Vancouver 2 years ago I heard a show on Eating Disorders – it shocked me to know that 40% of 9 year old Canadian girls were or had been on a diet……are you kidding me?? What messages are we sending our children I thought!!
Now, I am not a counsellor or Dr – yet most Dr’s don’t know how to deal with this issue – as the success rate of overcoming an eating disorder is less than 30% from going into treatment……….something on many fronts is not working. The stats on eating disorders is scary. I’ve had my own personal journey so I know what it’s like to be in between the fridge and the toilet – in other words deep shit – so I get it!!
Where did we get so off?
I love eating healthy, I feel better – in more ways than one especially since I have become the master over my food and more importantly my emotions (for the most part after all I am still human and have them but they don’t control me like before). I’ve created a 21 day email program to help intercept patterns and programming – it may seem different and it is!! This is not dealing with hard core eating disorders yet it can and work well with any program or counselling one is going through.. I know – I’ve used all the tools and tips in the program – time and again.
We have to re-program – which we can do, we have to really up our self love, we need to stop buying into the bs media advertising of you aren’t good enough the way you are and get off of the processed foods and I will explain that part why in my next post.
I am going to share things with you that are out of the box – the box sucks, is too small and conforming and most of us don’t fit in it so stop trying to fit in – you were meant to stand out and shine your light. It just got dimmed for awhile while you developed amnesia forgetting who you truly are at a deep – Soul level.
Part of my mission here on planet earth is to help wake women up to their uniqueness, their beauty, to unplug with the I am not good enough programming in the matrix (yes it is kind of like the movie!!) and to help you see that you are worth it!!
You may think it’s hippy dippy, out there, weird, different and it is – it has to be as look around at society and the world – how’s it working for many people??
Some are asleep and will never wake up – it’s not their journey possibly this lifetime, if you are reading this chances are you are waking up and know or want a different way!
21 Days Food & You – is about breaking free – an email a day for 21 days and more. You may not have a break thru experience in the 21 days – it may take going through it several times – who cares – it’s your journey and the one back to self and health is different for everyone. That is the cool thing – you can re-do it over as many times as you need – programs run deep in us.
2018 is the year to step into more of you with more self love – are you ready?
Have you ever stopped and thought about what is real food?
This is a long post and at the end I have a little gift for you!
In this post I would like to share a different perspective on real food, it may stretch you a bit, but that is good isn’t it? It may help you to eliminate dieting for ever – that is good too isn’t it?
If may help you create a healthier living eating style with ease – that is good too isn’t it?
That is my hope!!
You may have be aware of or have heard that – Everything IS Energy. Well, it’s true.
Everything IS Energy.
Yes – EVERYTHING.
Our thoughts?? – Yup energy!
The table you sit at? – Yes
Our bodies? Yup those too
Food – why yes of course it is!
So IF Everything IS Energy, and it is, but don’t take my word for it – there are many Scientists and Quantum Physicists proving all of this, J why would one knowingly eat low vibing, fake, chemical laden foods?
I know – we are run by our taste buds and believe what the commercials on tv say – right? J
Energy has different vibrations which is really different frequencies.
An example would be a table – if you cut it open and put it under a microscope you will still find atoms and molecules moving around – hence much denser and slower but it’s energy. No matter with the item you will find the same thing just different density or frequency.
Our bodies are 99.99999% space – yet all of us are energy of varying degrees of vibration or frequencies. If we took all that away say in our hand, what would be left would be very very small hand as all the space is gone.
You’re probably thinking, ‘what does this have to do with food?’ Stay with me here!
Back to everything IS Energy – including our food. Even all the chemical concoctions labelled as food.
The diet industry has been lying to you.
Food manufacturers have been lying to you.
Labelling on much of the food is a lie too.
With all the mis-information, products, companies, opinions on the internet – it’s no wonder people are confused.
Lets go back to who we are. At the very core of our being we too are energy, we are consciousness or a Soul having a human experience. We come down and put on these body suits to create a life on planet earth.
Our bodies come from the sun and earth – everything we do we do for our bodies. We eat to fuel them, we work to house them, cloth them, we move them, etc
We are part of nature – we are electric and magnetic beings held together by sacred geometric forms that run on the power of the sun.
Yes the sun! You know all that sunblock – it’s not only full of toxic ingredients, killing the corral reef but also harming you. You skin is the biggest organ – so it’s absorbing all those toxins and then what you are eating is also being released out through your pores and if your diet is full of the chemical concoctions labelled as food and you go sit in the sun…….then well guess what it does?
Yup that c word comes out.
I am a freckly red head and I haven’t used sun block in over 6 years and have spent much time in the sun – never at mid day of course and never for hours on end and I don’t burn – anymore!
Anyways, back to what is real food.
We eat the light energy from the sun in the form of food or we should be.
Read that again.
Photosynthesis is the transformation of visible light energy into consumable fuel – it’s being consumed for calories that creates heat aka energy once digested.
Where in packaged foods, fast foods or foods laden with chemicals (which by the way our foods now have over 10 000 chemicals) is there any sun light?
Isn’t it interesting that as more and more ‘food’ products have come available more and more sickness and obesity has too?
Labels have information on calories, fats, carbs etc but very little of it matters.
Food ingredients – 4 simple rules I go by IF I buy canned or packaged food
– Do I need to learn Swahili to say any ingredients?
– Can I pronounce all the words cause if not, changes are I don’t have a clue what it is?
– Do I have to carry a food dictionary around with me to figure out what an ingredient is?
– Does it have a shelf life longer than my dog’s life?
Keep it simple.
Real foods came from Mother Nature – why does man always feel he can do better? Or is it because of money and profit??
Real food either has no label as it’s fresh and from the earth or very few and real ingredients in it.
When we eat real foods that have been grown in the sun and in the earth then we are ingesting light energy and elements. The sun energy charges us up and the earth energy grounds us – both are needed for optimal health. They also bring a balance of positive and negative ions.
When our bodies are off – we get sick.
Real food is one of the base necessities for a healthy life. We are all different, have different bodies and different genetics but we all need real foods.
Even much of our water is dead. I have been playing with structured water – using my vitamix and magnets – I can taste and feel the difference in my water – it’s awesome!
Wanna go a little further down the rabbit hole?
I really believe that the movie the Matrix actually gave us some clues. Since everything IS energy which therefore carries a frequency which is a number sequence…..yup…….if we put something in our food – aka a chemical – it will alter the food as it’s a different (man made) number frequency – then when we eat it a couple of things happen – if it’s processed, packaged or fast food – the body actually doesn’t understand the vibe, the energy, the number frequency – hence the coding of numbers so it can’t utilize or digest it, so even though we are eating we aren’t feeding the body – hence why so many people are getting sick. Also because there is so many chemicals in our foods and many are addictive ones – you keep wanting or coming back for more as the body at a cellular level are still starving even though you might be full.
As I’ve always said – there is a difference between eating food (or chemical concoctions labelled as food) and feeding the body.
Some or well many of the food additives actually are coded so that they run programs in your mind and body – addiction, emotions and more – I know sound freaky yet its true.
It affects our DNA – which btw I am learning IS very important.
Food is everywhere today and unfortunately it’s slowly killing many people.
My wish and hope is more and more people wake up to more of the big fat fucking lies the food industry has lead us to believe.
When one truly eats more real foods then the counting of calories, carbs etc doesn’t need to happen.
For some that struggle with emotional eating – I will be sharing some upcoming posts on that as well.
Food is suppose to be our energy and somehow it has become confusing, addictive, trendy, difficult, profitizing, manipulated and mostly dead.
One of the best ways to nurture yourself and body, to live easier, longer and with more vitality is to eat real foods!!
A I promised, I have a little gift for you – 2 of my books on Amazon are FREE to download today and tomorrow – Easy Raw or Vegan recipes – I hope you will download them BUT ever more so I hope you will use them and go on to create even more tasty healthy dishes and to keep eating real foods – so enjoy!!
Again the link to the Free books on Amazon Kindle is here – you can get the free kindle app in the store for any phone, iPad or computer.
I have been working on some programs, grants and submissions recently bringing to light how many women truly are Living Beyond Bondage.
This is just the start of truly opening up, sharing my journey, my healing and how so much in our every day world creates separation – mostly within ourselves, our bodies and keeps us separate and judging one another worse though ourselves.
This is just part of a recent submission with some photos.
Living Beyond Bondage
We were all born pure, innocent and full of love.
Somewhere along the line the story got distorted.
The drug of choice for many, especially women, is food.
Along with that drug often comes constant self criticizing, loathing, judging and obsessing about what one ate, didn’t eat, body size, shape and imperfections – no matter how small they may seem, it always gets distorted.
Yes, media, advertising, possibly parents, teachers, friends or siblings may play a role in somehow reminding us that we aren’t good enough the way we are IF we buy into it and believe it.
It’s a disorder gone rampant, with over 91% of women disliking their bodies and themselves, many to an extreme. 80% of 13 yr old Canadian girls have been on a diet already and 95% of people with an eating disorder are between the ages of 12 – 25 yrs.
I know – I’ve been one of them.
The mental, emotional and often times physical bondage is excruciating – yet many hide it well from others.
Stuffing down emotions, or better yet, not feeling them at all.
We often feel alone, fragmented and on our own keeping things bottled up inside.
We are caught in a vicious cycle of self depreciating, devaluing, loathing and often times self abusive – until we decide enough!!
Only 5 % of women naturally have the body type portrayed by women in the media and for which the other 91% are trying to compete, yet we continue to strive for something that truly is not the ‘norm.’
We aren’t good enough the way we are is the constant reminder.
The other 4% don’t have tv, internet or magazines and therefore they are the free ones.
If we’re going to buy into stories, why not buy into self empowering ones?
Who truly decided what beauty is?
We all have a story to tell – we’re trying to make it a similar to one another and that is the start of the disconnect.
We are born and should be able to be our authentic selves and creatively express who we truly be through our gifts – not by trying to be like one another.
With the start of the disconnect we compare, judge, shut down and buy into someone else’s ideas of beauty and what we should look like and we start our own mantra of not being good enough.
Yet we are like snowflakes – each individually designed, beautiful and unique.
Some of us, remembering that, have broken free from that bondage – most of it being self imposed and mental self talk.
We decided that our lives weren’t about fighting our bodies, hating our bodies or ourselves or spending 95% of our time worrying about a few pounds or what we did / did not eat.
Cause it’s really not about food.
There were too many other beautiful, amazing things to see, feel, be and do in this lifetime.
That is the start of removing the bondage – you allow yourself to feel – ALL and reprogram the self talk.
The one thing that separates a food / body obsessive addiction is you have to learn to live with both, unlike most other addictions.
When one can truly do that – accept and love what is – then the bondage is gone and nothing is more freeing than that.
I know I am one of them!
Women Wanted who Want to Break Free – Raw, Naked and Beautiful Project – Real, Authentic and Whole.
Please contact me for more information, if you would like to be part of this project or wherever I am at in my travels a possible photo shoot – it’s time to make some big changes and it starts with each one of us!
PS – My new 21 Days Food & You – Stop the Insanity is released – tools I’ve used that work to create a new reality where I am not a slave to food or my emotions!